Do you ever feel like you dont know who you are? Not sure what is actually truth and what is just stuff bouncing around in your head. There was a time when believing what I was told was of necessity. It satisfied me and gave me great contentment. Often those things were more truths of the community(the particular group of individuals I was with at the time). Have you ever butted heads with something that you once believed? I seem to being doing a lot of that. I often feel like I am on an island, alone and searching--longing for a companion(in the world of thoughts of course). Occasionally someone hops on your island for a moment and it feels so good. Occasionally you try to verbalize something you are going through and you can tell the other person isn't getting it. That can feel terrible. It is such a challenge to be known.
It strikes me that words can be our greatest tool in the process of discovery but also our greatest adversary when it comes to dialoguing with others. In most Christian circles I have been in there are certain unspoken rules of dialogue. Some things when "thought" just can not be said. Are there things you believe(at least at this moment) that you would not say? I would like a place where it is just dialogue, not conclusions. Where people can say the craziest things and not feel the weight of orthodoxy pressing on them. Often we are afraid of being misunderstood and so we pass through life playing the game by the unspoken rules.
As I am writing this I find it necessary to comment on the difference between the written word and the spoken word. Nobody is speaking here so there is a lot of room for speculation and misunderstanding. On that note here is a quote from Socrates warning one of his students(Phaedrus) on the disadvatages of written communcication when compared to face-to-face conversation.
"The fact is, Phaedrus, that writing invloves a similar disadvantage to painting. The productions of painting look like living beings, but if you ask them a question they maintain a solemn silence. The same holds true of written words; you might suppose that they understand what they are saying, but if you ask them what they mean by anything they simply return the same answer over and over again. Besides, once a thing is committed to writing it circulates equally among those who understand the subject and those who have no business with it; a writing cannot distinguish between suitable and unsuitable readers. And if it is ill-treated or unfairly abused it always needs its parent to come to its resuce; it is quite incapable of defending or helping itself."

"Learning is not a consequence of teaching or listening, but a consequence of thinking"

Le us think together not neccesarily alike.